I try again, but this time I decide to focus on only one diagram. As I start sketching this one next to the first sketch, I feel like I’m starting to relax lightly, as if I were tense when trying to draw a heart based of multiple pictures. There was too much I was trying to take in. I outline and shade every part of the human heart as this specific diagram shows. Once I finish, my drawing looks much better and I’m actually glad with the sketch. When I get home I draw another heart using the same guide but on another piece of paper. This third one, done without any other drawings around and just one guide, looks much better than the other two. When I tried to take in many perspectives of the same thing at the same time, the quality of my work lowered and when I decide to only focus on one perspective, without having anything else around, the quality of the drawing increases.
If I really want to look at myself through different perspectives and really get to know who I am and why I am the way I am, then I need to be ready to stop at one perspective, no matter if I like it or not, and truly understand it before I move on to the next one. I need to continue to struggle through the different viewpoints. What I really want to do with my project is to look at myself through a different lens and really delve into the abstract idea of personality and identity. I only now realise that my project needs even more dedication than what I thought a few days ago, as every different art piece is going to be a different perspective of myself. I need to take the time to block distractions and really analyse myself in a more critical way. I have to be willing to face myself and be brutal about my own mind.